Til Death Do Us Part by Sonya Williams & Karen Rodgers

Author:Sonya Williams & Karen Rodgers
Language: eng
Format: mobi
Tags: Relationships, Parenting & Relationships, Health, Divorce, Fitness & Dieting, Marriage, Self-Help, Family Relationships
Published: 2012-10-15T04:00:00+00:00

With God on my side all fear dies.

All the tears that I cried, He wiped away.

Now filled with His love,

I rise up above every trial that comes my way.

Though many times you’ve seen my demise,

once again I’m alive.

Like the phoenix I rise!

New Life

The Beginning of the End

So it’s been about two years since my husband and I separated. It has been a constant emotional roller coaster through Hell and back for the both of us. Well at least it was for me. I can only speak for him from the few conversations we had where he actually showed some type of emotion. Oftentimes discussing reconciliation with him has been like beating a brick wall with my bare hands. Just as I began to break through, he would put up a new brick; and those few times when I finally hit the right spot (or what my flesh felt was the right spot), those bricks would come tumbling down on top of me again. Pointless, right?

It took me 6 1/2 years to realize that 1. I can’t make him change; 2. The only person I can change is myself; and 3. Until we both learn to die to ourselves and live to serve God, that change is impossible because we were all born into sin. Transformation can’t take place until we are born again. ‘Til death we will always be apart. Amos 3:3 asks. “Can two people walk together without agreeing on the direction?” The answer is no. So can Shawn and I reconcile without him agreeing? Once again, the answer is no.

Malik Yoba took the words right out of my mouth in the Tyler Perry movie, Why Did I Get Married Too? “You can only fight with a person when they’re willing to get in the ring with you.” I’m sure it looks like I’ve given up because I have very little desire to even fight for this marriage anymore, but I have not and I never will give up on Shawn. Married, separated, divorced or whatever, I love him. I’m not talking about that warm fuzzy feeling or even sensual desire for him. I love him the way that Christ loves him, unconditionally. Despite all the drama we’ve been through, my only hope is that he, too, experiences the true love that I’ve found in Christ.

I don’t know exactly what God has in store for me, but I trust that if I continue to follow Christ, I can only go up from here. Each and every test gave me a testimony; and every trial that I’ve faced has led me to triumph. God has already given me the victory! No matter what the situation in front of me looks like, I’m going to keep looking up to Heaven and keep thanking God for the manifestation of His glory.

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